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happiness.

i haven’t updated in a minute…. figured i would change that. looks like the entire month of june was just skipped over. heh.

that’s fine though. i’ve been busy, as usual. i think i’ve gone out probably twice in the last month, just because i’ve been glued to this laptop and working like a fiend so i could save some extra bucks to move.
i’m a hustler ;)
even though a few select people would choose to think otherwise, given that i work from the comfort of my home, for myself, and not back in an office like i always did. i’m lazy… i need to get my life together… i’m this… i’m that. haha. it’s humorous. i also know that said people would most likely love to switch places and have their entire day to choose what to do and when to do it. but you know what else? what is super important to me that no one even realizes because their too busy laughing with info they DON’T know about?

due to the fact that i’m not working for any physical company, and what i do is freelance, i’ve been collecting unemployment. and my unemployment is not the crap little amount that helps pay for groceries every month. it’s an amount that i could actually live off of, pay rent with, whatever the case may be.

people don’t know that, because i don’t usually throw my business around. i could easily just  sit at home all day and do jack shit since i have money coming in for doing nothing.

but i work… every… single… day.
weekends, holidays, 2 in the morning, you name it, i’m working.

BY CHOICE.
MY choice.

because i want money in the bank, doing what i love to do, and building my design “business” to be where i see it being.

if that doesn’t say enough about the type of person i am, and how i’m NOT lazy, i really don’t know how else to put it. but maybe the people that have all the jokes to make and shit talking to do, can find out that little tidbit about yours truly that they never knew about, and kiss my fuckin ass.

foot… meet mouth.

i’m not better than anyone. rest assured i have more than enough flaws and problems in my life for 10 people. but i work hard… WHEN I DONT NEED TO.  i never went to school for these things. i was a dance major at the university of the arts. i can’t draw anything but a pretty awesome eye, lol… or a flower. i’m really good at flowers. haha. the point is, I TAUGHT MYSELF how to DESIGN. and to be doing something that i learned on my own… to be doing it WELL, making “J. Bongiorno Design” actually known with some big companies that have since turned into clients, on top of referrals to OTHER big companies… I’D SAY THATS A FUCKIN ACCOMPLISHMENT IF THERE EVER WAS ONE. i’m definitely not one to ever give a shit about defending my life, or the choices i make. but in this specific case… after seeing certain things people that have known me all my life have been saying… i refuse to keep my mouth shut.

but the most important thing to me, and only me… is that i’m incredibly happy. not even just with working so much, or money, etc… but with myself.
with my life.
with where i’m going, and what i’m doing.
with WHO is in my life… <3
who i wake up to every morning that makes me smile ;)
with how i’m able to move to florida right NOW, but i’m being smart about it and not rushing like i do everything in my life, and taking the time to be completely secure financially, “because you never know”.
i’m ecstatic with what i have waiting for me down there.
and i’m beyond proud of myself.

and thats all that matters.

its sad to me that i have to resort to writing something like this because people are so miserable with their own lives, they have nothing better to do than worry about mine.

like i said yesterday…
“don’t compare your life to others. you have no idea what their journey is all about.”